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Blood Milk Jewels

Self-Portrait In a Sea of Grief

$400.00

Blood Milk Jewels

Self-Portrait In a Sea of Grief

$400.00

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Dear you,

If I was speaking this to you, my voice would be shaking and surely, I would be fighting tears that would never the less force their way out anyway, psychically wounded tears, from a wound that will never heal, that I will carry forever. If I sound dramatic, it’s because I should. When a death ruptures your life, as it has for so so many of you all and us collectively these days, there should be intensity, we should be baring it and sharing it. It’s been strange to me how much of these pandemic times, these mass death times, this grand psychic wounding time we are in - that we are not talking of it more as a culture- we are not sharing our grief. Perhaps this is who we are as a whole, but here, in this glowing portal under my banner, there is space, however imperfectly I may speak of it, in fits and starts - in jewels and carousels and sometimes, in my absence because I can’t find any other way.
Early August I lost my grandmother. I was close to her as she slipped away and it was one of the hardest things I have ever witnessed and will witness and I am lost in the Labyrinth- in the Sea of Grief. I don’t know how to find my way out, I don’t know how to connect with my friends or loved ones, I don’t know how to communicate or how to be; I’m so grateful I still know how to communicate through jewelry and writing even if that feels painful af. This strand is by far the most personal in the collection because it was made in honor of my grandmother, Dee, who spent most of her life near the sea. The color palette was chosen in homage to the photo of her in this carousel that I saw for the first time after her death and just fell in love with. On the back is a little love note from my grandfather. The glitter in her costume shines thru despite its age. If you choose this strand, know you are wearing a piece of my heart, a piece of my grief, a piece of the sea her and I grew up near. 🖤🐚I share my grief to be connected to you, because I don’t know how else to cope. 

 

The’ Self-Portrait’ series was born after I had the opportunity to view the exhibition of Frida Kahlo’s personal belongings and clothing at the Brooklyn museum in 2019. Among the treasures on view were her beaded necklaces, included one made of chunky aqua colored stones, that were believed to be Mayan grave goods as Diego often purchased artifacts from excavation sites. She strung her own strands together and this was evident - as well as a swirl of paint, similar in color, on one of the beads; she was most likely color matching for one of her self-portraits. I’d like to try to express how seeing these things in person made me feel; as if she was present, her spirit filling up the room, at turns exuberant and melancholy- but I can’t. My words, what I often fall back on to truly express myself, don’t feel quite enough. Instead, I decided to make my own strands, similar in length and size, to hers- to echo through time and to allow for a kind of web to be formed. Frida was always wearing jewelry and was one of the inspirations for my own love of jewelry before I began making my own. Psychic armor forever.

 

This strand is composed of large, round, clear quartz spheres, milky quartz spheres, pearls, and silver plated hematite.   

Designed to be worn closer to the neck, this strand measures approximately 20.5 inches long from end to end, including clasp.

At its closure is our larger, double sided, Cretan labyrinth clasp in sterling silver, oxidized to our favorite gloomy grey and and finished to highlight the shining silver beneath.  

As a special, bold statement piece, it also layers beautifully with other BloodMilk necklaces.

 

**IMPORTANT***:
This strand is handmade to order, just for you, with care and focus. Please allow approximately 5 weeks for its creation before shipping.

Some of the beads used in this strand are limited. We can not anticipate whether or not this particular style will be available again after this release. 

*Length note: Because individual bead measurements vary slightly, total strand lengths are approximate within a few millimeters in either direction. Please reach out via email if you have any questions about this. 

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